Hooray and Oh, No!

Calvin is being discharged from the dementia unit of the hospital today.  I just received the call less than 6 hours before discharge time.  I have missed Calvin so much.  I love him so much.  I am so excited that he will be home.  Kruger, the dog, and all the cats will be so happy to see Daddy.

I am so scared that Calvin is coming home.  I don't have home health care completely in place yet.  The house is not all clean like I wanted it.  I have been on the phone with the insurance company, home health agencies, Calvin's mother, just to try to get things in order.  I am afraid that Calvin will get himself into trouble. 

I admit that I will miss the quiet evenings to myself when I could watch what I wanted to on T.V., play on the computer, crochet, all the things I enjoy doing.  Perhaps that sounds selfish.  But, imagine having to work 24 hours a day.  In the morning, I have to make sure Calvin is either at his mother's or his home health aide is there.  Then, I have to go to work, wondering if I will get multiple phone calls from Calvin.  I come home and the home health aide leaves.  Calvin's care is completely up to me at that point.  I need to cook dinner, clean up from dinner, do the cat boxes and any other chores, all the while taking care of Calvin's needs.  When I say my prayers before bed, I know that I might very well be woken up during the night because Calvin might pull some weirdness, like going out for a walk at 1:00am.

I am so delighted and so scared that Calvin is coming home.